I Shalt Not Fear

As I enter into this new year and new decade I do it afraid. Afraid of all that might be and my potential to really mess it up. There is so much I have to be thankful for. Yet there is still so much I want. My desires seem to overwhelm me at times. My fear of success threatens to pull me under water and hold me there. It's not just about doing the right thing. It's about doing the right thing for me...right now. Feeding my soul and not just my body. Reaching for my own happiness and not feeling selfish while doing it. Following my dreams and not giving a damn who may disapprove. Last year I finally felt comfortable in my own skin. Gave myself the permission to be who I am...authentically.  Sometimes I still fall into the comfort of old grooves but more often then not I am aware of it. I have to make my life happen now...and I will.