I Shalt Not Fear

As I enter into this new year and new decade I do it afraid. Afraid of all that might be and my potential to really mess it up. There is so much I have to be thankful for. Yet there is still so much I want. My desires seem to overwhelm me at times. My fear of success threatens to pull me under water and hold me there. It's not just about doing the right thing. It's about doing the right thing for me...right now. Feeding my soul and not just my body. Reaching for my own happiness and not feeling selfish while doing it. Following my dreams and not giving a damn who may disapprove. Last year I finally felt comfortable in my own skin. Gave myself the permission to be who I am...authentically.  Sometimes I still fall into the comfort of old grooves but more often then not I am aware of it. I have to make my life happen now...and I will.

Fresh Starts....

The Koru

To the Maori tribes in New Zealand, this spiral design is called the Koru. Mimicking the frond of the fern, it represents the unfolding of new life, hope, and renewal, bringing purity to the world. The Koru is also known to symbolize peace, tranquility and spirituality. It represents humans working together in harmony. And if that isn't enough, the Koru is often associated with nurturing; reminding humans of the strength and love within the family relationship. It embodies everything a conscious living soul needs to be reminded of the good things to hold onto and strive for in life.
For me, this symbol invokes an awareness of personal growth and the potential for new beginnings.

A New Year Has Begun...

"Driving down the wrong road and knowing it, The fork years behind, how many have thought To pull up on the shoulder and leave the car Empty, strike out across the fields; and how many Are still mazed among dock and thistle, Seeking the road they should have taken?"

~ Damon Knight, The Man in the Tree, 1984